Currently Twilight Soundtrack Let Me Sign see related

so.

dreaming big.

really. big.

and steadily taking steps less and less unsure toward achieving those dreams.

soon.

very soon. the point where sharing the dreams with others is ok.

because. 'you can't do it' and 'i can't do it' become two very different things.

excitement.

yes.

Currently My Paper Heart By Francesca Battistelli Free to be Me see related

blink. breathe. consider. decide. proceed. believe. accept. reflect. repeat.

Currently Say I Am You By The Weepies, The Weepies Walk On see related

here i go. the start of a new beginning. the door is wide open and i'm FINALLY stepping through. who knows what's on the other side or what it'll cost to get there. but no more looking at the door and saying to myself i wish i could just walk through it. i am going to toss the apathy and the laziness and the second-guessing and walk through that stinking door. i'm taking action. i'm moving forward. i'm moving up. i'm deciding to become all that i can be. and that is terrifying because i believe i can be a whole heck of a lot! no more dipping my toes, testing the waters and considering the possible negative things that could happen if i go all in. "i'm diving in, i'm going deep" sings steven curtis chapman. me too. life is too short not to. i want to make a splash on life. wish me luck.

here i go.

Currently Breakaway By Kelly Clarkson see related

Two steps forward, one step back. I'm growing and learning. But gosh is it ever going slowly!! I fought and cried and struggled and separated myself and finally let go... only to find myself slipping into the same hole two and a half months after I moved on. And I had. Moved on that is. A lot of times in my life I've fooled myself and others into believing that I didn't really care about something and that I was in full control of a situation. But deep down I knew my heart would be lying if it said I didn't care. However, the past two months... gosh it's just been AMAZING how freeing it is to not be burdened by jealously and worry and hurt and rejection! Beyond amazing. And that's what I realized it feels like to truly let go and make a conscious effort to move on. It helped me be more efficient with my time and better able to connect with and serve others around me. I could walk around confident and with a pure smile on my face because I knew I was in control of what made me happy and I was in control of my feelings. I wasn't eaten by the fear of the unknown. I could relish in what had been and look forward to what could be--with others. Yes, if someone was to have burrowed deep within me, they would have found traces of the feelings that still existed there. But they would have had to REALLY search, because it was no longer a fundamental part of who I was. I was elated. I'm still not exactly sure what happened...

It's back. Or I guess HE is, rather. It started out innocently. So innocently that I didn't realize what was happening for two weeks. I was wandering around the hole, which at that point in my life was not dangerous. But somewhere between then and now, I slipped--and slipped fast. I'm angry with myself. I shouldn't have even indulged in faint traces of temptation, thinking I would be safe. Now I'm stuck again and it's going to take a heap of a lot of effort to get myself back out, cleaned off, and walking confidently on my own two feet again. I can do it, but I have to spend my energy on so many other things right now in my life that I can't face it head on like I did last time.

Note to Self: Once out of the hole, move to a land mass where it does not exist.. if at all plausible.